i could felt my heart still aching when i hear your name.even when i found out that you sent me a very short text,my heart burst as i want to wipe all those tears and ran towards you to hug you by that time.its a very simple text,how could it make a glimpse of hopes in my heart?yes,im still hoping.i felt so regret for not replying your text on that day.i felt miserable and felt lazy to talk with anybody on that day.luckily i have my friends who had willing to hear for my story and watched me spilt a lil bit tears in front of them.how would that possibly not hurt?stop testing me.i feel damn tired already.every night,i wanted to hear to your voice saying that i miss you.everytime i looked up to the sky,i count the stars as always you asked me to.everything seems reminds me of you.how could i get rid of this feeling?
last night...i found out something.the opinion from anybody as if they were in your condition.i hear to every single words she said,and now i get it.it hurts,maybe.it still hurts.but now i could understand if i was in your condition.since i'd understand,what for im still here?my mind,giving up...i cant think of you anymore.i cant missing you anymore.i get really tired and my mind need a rest.i have to stop hurting myself.but my heart...should i get rid of those butterflies?should i find the new owner?or should i shut my door close for a year again and never worries about those boys?time will figure out the answer.time shall do everything from now on..tho its hard to move one.time,please heals...
