Losing myself.

for sometimes,i cant find any reason for hating you no matter how hard i find the reasons.ikr the reasons is still there,but i just cant face it and i hate it.our memories,jokes,and all your sweet words still linger in my mind.already past few days,and as you could see (even if you see),my heart is tearing apart day by day.til theres no more,but im still here,hoping for you..

i just...missing you each day,hoping for you back..no matter how you hurt me,i still can think about you like you never done any faults to me.where your heart had gone?i keep wondering,does all your sweet talks,all 143 stuff was just an acting?then i must say,your acting worth a grammy.every night i would ended up to sleep by thinking of you.maybe you just never miss me much as i missed you.

But thank you for your last reason.atleast you wont pretending yourself for more time.i guess i just need to build my walls more hard after this time.you just making myself more tough this time.no worries,i used to face this kinda difficulties before.

Just so you remember,you once love me...and you cant change that used to be.